I have one big fear.
I think some of you will be able to relate when I tell you that…
I’m afraid of disappointing people.
When I was a bit younger, I went from company to company finding the right job. I would impress the CEOs and directors and I’d get any job I applied for easily.
But that was only the beginning.
After a few months, I’d get dissatisfied and start complaining about how the system works, or how the boss handles his staff.
After a year or so, I’d look for a new company to work for, a new boss to impress, a new set of friends to work with.
Yes, I did get a higher rank, and higher pay and better benefits. But I also had a disquieting feeling within me, a little voice that kept asking, “why can’t you stay put?”
Then suddenly, in one of my moments of reflection, the answer dawned on me.
I was so afraid of disappointing people!
I know everybody had high hopes and are impressed with me at the beginning of my onboarding in every company. I was so afraid that they’d discover my super duper hidden secret: that I’m not as good as they thought.
So, before they figure out that I’m not the high-level expert they thought me to be, I’d leave and impress some other company… and the cycle goes on.
When I realized this, I started thinking about where this hidden self-doubt was coming from? Then, in another aha moment, the answer hit me on the face.
I didn’t want to disappoint people because I didn’t think I was good enough – good enough for the company, good enough for my friends, good enough for my relationships….
I fooled a lot of people to believe in me, but I never really believed in myself.
Then I met God.
I felt the warmth of His love, the fullness of His acceptance.
He knew my deepest darkest secret – my fear of disappointing people.
Then He told me, “No matter how much you try, you will never disappoint Me.”
Little by little, I finally understood and accepted myself. I finally took a chance and stayed. I finally overcame my fear.
Friend, do you have the same fears?
Take a chance on God! He will never disappoint you.